My latest craze

     Okay, so as you guys know, there was a large gap between my previous posts, and I figure that it's time for me to explain why. During all that time I was busy with Tim and our miniature adventures. However, that was only a contributing factor. The main reason is, I've been going through a weird health crisis. I'm REALLY unsatisfied with my body.

     Now before you go and roll your eyes, I'll explain that I'm very comfortable with my weight (a boastful 170 lbs). The problem is that I have no muscle. This was revealed to me while I was cashiering at work and tried to lift a large bag of kitty litter, something that I would have been able to do without a problem about a year ago. Needless to say, I failed. It took two tries before I could pick the damn thing up and slide it across the register.




    So what have I been doing? Wearing myself ragged with workouts, that's what. I'm not the type of person that sits by idly when there is a problem. However, those said workouts have caused  my sleep schedule to shift and my body to become sore, therefore making my life very difficult.

  
     And the fact that I saw this magazine cover tonight at work isn't reassuring. I just realized how jealous of Kellan Lutz I am. Grrrrrr.

     Does anyone realize how much work would have to go into a body like that!? I don't have the time or money, and certainly not the determination... YET I WANT IT SO BAD!

...Anyways, I'm off work for the next four days... maybe I can use that time to boost my enthusiasm, like I did a long time ago...