Friday, August 6, 2010

Hedonism

1 : the doctrine that pleasure or happiness is the sole or chief good in life
2 : a way of life based on or suggesting the principles of hedonism

     For the past few days I've tried living the Hedonistic lifestyle. Not to say that I haven't been happy lately, but I feel like my life has fallen into a repetitive cycle; Work, eat, and sleep. Well I've decided that I don't want that, so I've been treating myself to the best in life. That includes staying up as late as I want, sleeping in as much as I want, eating a whole batch of cookies at 1:00 in the morning, and taking long candlelit baths to the sound of Stevie Nicks floating above the smoke of incense. Yes it has been nice. (And as you can see, Poochie has joined in... but then again how hard is his life anyways?)
     But there is always a price to pay. I fear I have spoiled myself and thrown my schedule off. Not to mention the weight that I gained from eating all of those cookies so late (which will eventually wear off, I know).

     I think I've learned that there needs to be an equal balance of stress and happiness in everyone's life. Too much of a good thing ISN'T a good thing, thank you very much Mr. Allen Jackson (country music reference).

      Oh, how I look forward to college. It'll keep my brain active, which has lately been a problem for me resulting in utter boredom. Also I believe it will give me some time to myself. Yeah, what you're thinking is right, I miss my alone time.

     Don't get me wrong, I absolutely LOVE Tim in every aspect and I love to spend time with him, but I do need a little space. After all, we've been seeing each other non-stop ever since we started getting serious. I don't have the heart to tell him this though. I'm positive it would crush him and he'd think that I was getting tired of him (which isn't true at all), so I'm waiting on the perfect excuse to come along.

     I know how this is gonna work, too. After having time to myself I'll start missing him and want to be near him all over again, so it's nothing serious (I'm just fickle, is all).

5 comments:

  1. I'm glad you've been relaxing. As for myself, I've been getting tired of my schedule too. For awhile I was jogging and keeping in shape, but work has stopped me from doing that. Like you, I'm excited for college too! I won't have to work so much (I might be quitting my job anyways, read my newest blog to see why) and I'll be able to do something besides sit here. I will probably gripe about my college work too, but still.

    Well I hope Tim understands that you need your time, I'm sure he will.

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  2. A little space is good for a relationship, I think. It helps you appreciate the other person.

    Mmm, cookies at 1am.

    And I love Stevie Nicks too!

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  3. i want some of your cookies fo' sho. i know what you mean with getting bored of the same routine, same here for me :/

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  4. I definitely know what you mean by having "me time". I also use school as my time to escape from my apartment/husband, haha. I have had a problem with baking cookies at 1am and stuffing my face.
    Your entry makes me want to go take a bath & have candles everywhere :)

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  5. Too much too soon can spoil something amazing!
    Thank you so so much for your support of my quitting smoking - it means alot to me.
    And now your cookies have made me hungry!! :P

    xo

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