Day 2 of Vacation

     Sooo last night was THE ECLIPSE PREMIER, and I have to say that the movie actually lived up to all the hype. But I'll get to the movie review later, Let's talk about how the day went....
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     I got up, with every intention to get my college form filled out. The lady at the admission office had already sent me home to get a copy of my federal tax return, so I'd already tried to got this over with once before. So that morning, I drove over to Mom's house to see if they had a copy on file [while Tim stayed home and cleaned the bedroom (thanks honey)]. After i got the copy, I drove ALL the way back down the to the admissions office, to have her say, "Ohh, I'm sorry. I'll need your parent's signatures on this."

     I pretended like it didn't bother me, but really I was sort of pissed. I mean that was the third time I'd had to drive down there, and I still needed stuff to be done! So I drove back to Mom's then back to the college where she took it without any further problems.... now all I do is wait and see if I'll be receiving any type of aid. I doubt it, being as late in the year as it is, but still. It was worth a try.

     Then Tim Introduced me to the wonderful world of Resident Evil. It was actually not as bad as I thought it was going to be. (I have some sort of natural revolt against zombies and zombie films, and Tim ADORES them.) So I agreed to sit it out, but really I kind of enjoyed it. Sure there were parts that were cheesy. There were some nasty parts as well, but overall it was good.

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So I think the best way to describe the night is through picture:
    

First we had to prepare. Sooo we did our hair... well I did my hair, lol. We put on our best costumes and we did our makeup...

Then we left for Alabaster and ended up eating at Buffalo Wild Wings. Tim ordered Sweet BBQ chicken fingers when I ordered  the Sweet BBQ chicken wrap. Little did I know that the wrap had diced tomatoes on it. I HATE fresh tomatoes, so Tim swapped with me, like the saint he is.

 

     Then were off to the Theater, where I saw an VERY good, old friend of mine. Her name is Brittany (the one on the far right). She helped me when I was first coming out, and let me realize who I was, even though we were dating at the time. She turned out to be a very valuable friend, and I was SO excited about seeing her again.

After the movie I caught up with Kristi and J-rowe to take some pics, even though we didn't do anything else. I really hope that we can all go hang out one day.. I really miss them.

Finally, we took Mysti with us to the after-party at Dairy Queen. Sure we may have goofed off a little... or a lot, but still we had fun.

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About the movie:

     It was perhaps the BEST installment of the three films. There were no awkward moment, Bella and Edward actually seemed like a REAL couple this time, and Jacob wasn't constantly TRYING to be sexy. This film was a lot more mature than the other two, in the way that the director didn't aim to make teenage girls swoon, as much as he did to tell the story. The action scenes were TERRIFIC and the special effects were so much better than they were in the other two movies. Another thing, I actually felt emotion while watching this. Usually, I don't get caught up in a movie because I'm examining the acting and picking away the cinematography (yeah, I'm that one guy that everybody hates to sit and watch a movie with...), but I actually got pulled into this one enough to experience it... not many movies can say that... period.

Anyways, It was a GREAT movie and I HIGHLY recommend it to any twilight fan, die-hard or not.

Day 1 of Vacation

     First of all, let me give out a huge THANKS to all of my blog-friends! the words that you guys gave me really helped me along! I am no longer feeling upset or discomforted by those things. Sure, it took a bit of thought, but in the end I regained my sense of self-worth and decided to stop wallowing in my own misery.

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     So as the title says, today is Day 1 of vacation for Tim and me. Both of us are off work for an entire week, and we have a LOT planned. Today, we decided to take care of some unfinished business. Poochie has been needing a bath for quite some time, now. He's also begun scratching at his chin and ears.... that's right... FLEAS!

     So while we were in town, we decided to buy Poochie some stuff. We ended up getting flea killer, ear mite repellent, cat food, a cat collar, and a lazer (for his enjoyment). Seeing Poochie chase that lazer beam was perhaps the highlight of the evening, but eventually he got tired, and it was time for a bath.
 
  He wasn't too fond of the bath, as expected, but he was such a good kitty! He only clawed Tim once, and it was by accident. The rest of the time he just sat there, looking at us with those big 'ole eyes. I've never seen a cat so loving that he behaves  so well under a faucet! Poor Poochie, I know he doesn't understand now, but he'll thank us later.






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     Tomorrow we'll be planning our big event, THE ECLIPSE PREMIER, which I have to say, I'm pretty stoked about. In fact, this year, I'm going all out. I've readied myself with Vampire makeup and a costume and practiced with it last night.... what do you think?

A bit depressed :(

     I don't really feel like posting much since I'm feeling a little sad today. Yesterday, my boss confronted me about wearing make-up and told me it was company policy that women ONLY should wear make-up. So no more concealer to cover my bad case of acne :(

     Then, not even ten hours later, I saw Tim at work and he was mad. When I asked him why, he said he just got done chewing out some redneck guys about calling him a queer. All I could do is hold him and tel him everything is going to be alright. You see, Tim reacts in anger when his feelings get hurt....

     Then I had this dream about a mass genocide of the gay community... well it was more of a nightmare, really.

     But all of this has revealed somthing to me. I'm going to have to live with this my whole life.

The fear of being attacked for walking too close to my boyfriend.
The verbal abuse that these homophobes make us endure.
The social unacceptability of my UNCHANGEABLE sexual orientation.

     I'm afraid that all of this will follow me to my grave. And I'm tired of fighting it. I'm tired of wearing a smile when it's killing me inside. I'm tired of having to replace my tears with anger in order to protect myself. But really, what does it matter? Nobody cares.

three more days!

That is, until Tim and I are going on our extended week-long vacation! I can't wait. We've already got a whole host of things planned, including Eclipse premier, visiting his family, a humongous outdoor shopping event, and camping! It's going to be great!

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     Yesterday, we spent most of the day together. We just went out to Alabaster and hung out there for a while. We ended up sitting in Books A Million and convincing some random lady to try reading Twilight. She said that she wasn't very into reading for pleasure, but we both assured her that it was a good, easy read.

     After that, we went to see Prince of Persia, which was a good film. It could have been better, but that's what you get when you go to see a Disney film :/

Summer Solstice.

First of all... HAPPY SUMMER SOLSTICE!

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     Okay, so this morning I woke up with every intention to go to IHOP with Tim. However, we couldn't find one locally. So, instead we went to Olive Garden (it was Tim's first time.) Everything was going great until it came time to pay the bill. I gave my card to the waitress, named Kasey, only to have her return with a worried look on her face.

     "Sir, it declined your card." She handed it back. "Do you have another one?"

      I was sure that I had enough money in my account to pay so I told her to try typing the card numbers in. After all, the magnetic strip has been acting up lately. While she went off to try it again, I called my bank on Tim's cell. They told me I had approximately twelve dollars in my account.... the bill was thirty three dollars worth....

     So, panicking on the inside, I waited for the waitress to return. It seemed like an eternity, and I was seriously embarrassed. Nothing like this ever happened to me before! Finally, she returned.

     "Sir, it isn't taking it. I'm sorry." She seemed to be sincere in her apology. "But my manager is really cool and he said not to worry about it."

     So, I told her about what my bank had said, and I sent her back again to take the remaining twelve dollars out and thanked her when she came back.

     I felt horrible. Disgusted. Ashamed. How could I be so stupid? Tim obviously knew how I was feeling and told me to drive him to Arby's so that we could get his paycheck. It's quite a drive from Alabaster to Southern Clanton, but I was so distracted that I wasn't really concerned. Tim told me that he'd cover the remaining tab if I'd drive him back up to Olive Garden.

     All in all, the debt was paid, and I have good reason to believe that the waitress had that twenty dollars taken from her own paycheck, so I'm glad we returned it. So if you go to Alabaster's Olive Garden and Have Kasey B. as your waitress, leave her a big 'ole tip! ;)

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     Later, we ended up going to the galleria. Sure, I got lost on the way.... but the funny part about that was I've been lost going up there before... in the same EXACT spot. Luckily, Tim walked me through the directions and helped me find the way again.

     Anyways, so we get to the mall and see these shoes right? They were a pair of really nice boots. Tim's eyes practically sparkled when he saw them... then we saw the tag. Turns out shoes at Buckle are just as expensive as the pants there... and that's just not in our budget right now.

     So, we went shoe cruising for a while only to find prices climbing and climbing, each time was a little more aggravating than the last. Then we went inside a really nice store with practically the same boots, except they were marked down about thirty dollars less than the other ones. Both of us got excited. Tim called one of the workers over and had them fetch a pair in his size.

      As we waited there, I could see Tim getting more and more excited.

     "I'm sorry we don't carry them in 12... but we have a pair in size 10 1/2. Well, Tim desperately tried fitting into it, but it just wouldn't go. So he sent them back.

     "We could order them for you, sir." The worker tried. But Tim just sadly shook his head.

     When we left that store, I thought he was gonna cry. He was seriously so upset, and I didn't know what to do other than to tell him that it was okay. I really didn't understand why he was so upset, and I told him that.

     He answered. "I just really like shoes..." in a croaky voice. I just felt like holding him.

     Well, shortly after, we were walking by a store when Tim suddenly stops. He was looking through the window at these beautiful boots.

     "You go in." he said. "I'm scared that they'll be too expensive."

     So I went in, flipped the shoe over, and almost laughed when I saw the price. It ended up being about fifty to sixty dollars cheaper than the Buckle shoes and, in my opinion, were cuter. Yay for happy endings!

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I myself had a moment, too.

     Right before leaving, I told Tim I wanted to go to my favorite store, Ambiance. To my dismay, I found that the store had been closed. But on the way to the door I saw a store called Mountain High Outfitters.

     Now, let me tell you. TOMS are probably the hardest shoes to come across in Alabama. For the past few months, I've been looking for a new pair everywhere only to find nothing. This store carries more varieties of TOMS than I knew were even out there... AND I got mine 30% off! Well, Tim payed for him, but I'm repaying him tomorrow when my paycheck comes in... (and it's gonna be HUGE!)

Anyways, here is a pic of our shoes:

(One of mine is in the middle his)

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So here's something I'm really proud of... I took these pictures the other night. They are each a tribute to my LOVE of the Gaga!

...whatcha think??? Some of the people at work saw them on facebook and thought I was making pornography XD !!! I think I've got it all explained though! lol.

Lacking

Seeing as how I am practically living at work, i won't be posting for the next couple of days....

GNO!!!

     Yesterday I went to work, thinking that I had to work a nine hour shift. However, when I went to see the schedule, I wasn't scheduled to work yesterday. Instead, I was scheduled to work today. Well, at first, I was a little upset because I had made some slight plans for today and yesterday.

     So I was left with nothing to do. Then, a brilliant idea came to mind. I hadn't seen my best friend, Steph, since graduation. So I called her up and asked if she wanted to do anything. She seemed more than happy to oblige.

     We ended up going to the theater and seeing Get Him to the Greek. She thought it was funny as heck, when to me it was okay. Really, it was just fun hanging out. We had almost the whole theater to ourselves!

Wow that pic isn't very flattering at all is it? Lol

    

     After the somewhat-funny movie we went to eat at olive garden and got to discuss some deep issues like what the future holds and our slipping relationships with old friends. Then I remembered why she was my best friend. She's the type of person you can expect to listen to your problems and come up with a strong, practical solution from total sincerity. She and I have also related very strongly to the same issues. Now don't get me wrong, we have our differences, but most of the time we agree on about everything.

     After olive garden we went to Books A Million and I helped her pick out a cute journal while getting something for myself. (it's a surprise that you'll maybe hear about later.) While in books a million, she got cold so I lent her my jacket. Well when we were leaving the store it starts pouring and she takes off toward her car, wearing my jacket, leaving me to get wet :). It's okay though, I love the rain!

Oh.... goodness

     Well I woke this morning and went to my face book to find a message in my Inbox that came from my mom that said: "Just wanted to let ya know I love you Lloyd and I'm still praying for you." Well That seems nice enough, but it kind of unnerved me. When she say she's "still" praying for me, that means she's hoping that I'll turn straight, find some nice girl, and breed lots of babies. In other words she should have just said to me "Just wanted to let ya know I love you Lloyd and I still don't accept you being gay." That's how it made me feel, at least.

     So, I went to go post a response on her wall, when I noticed a button by her picture that read: Add as a Friend. You know what that means? My mother has done went and deleted me from her friends list on facebook. Now there are two possible reasons why she has done this.


One:

   The other day she invited me to come and eat over at her house. I told her that Tim and I were fixing something to eat and that I didn't know if we'd come. Apparently she thought that I said "Yeah I'll come, but we're going to eat a snack first" or something along those lines. Either way, Our dinner took a little longer to cook than we thought it would so we couldn't show up, and when Lillie (my sister) called to ask if we were coming, i had to tell her no. I heard raised voices in the background and decided to let her go. So, I'm assuming that mom got mad about it.

Two:

     A joke gone wrong. Mom and I have an ongoing argument about Mexicans living in the united states. I'm for it, she's against it. You know common, south-eastern behavior. Well, I was watching some clips from Mad TV on you tube and I ran across this:



     I sent it to her on facebook as a joke. But she could have taken it the wrong way, I realize. After all, this argument has gotten pretty heated before. Anyways, for what ever reason she's done this, I'm a little disappointed in her for responding this way. I'm not really concerned, just disappointed. I also think that she knew that message would upset me when she sent it, so I'm not gonna let that bother me either.

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     In other news, today is the third month that Tim and I have been in a relationship. I'm so happy about that! This is the longest relationship I've EVER been in and I'm soo happy with him!

Back to Normal...

     ...and Happy about it. The morning after my last post, everything was just as fine as it was the day before. We've only grown closer. Another thing, I don't really count on that last bit as being an argument. I've always told Tim that I look forward to our first argument, and I still do, but whatever that was really didn't count.

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     Okay, so the other day we found something pretty amazing in our garden. We had noticed for a while that there was a yellow squash plant growing in the garden. Nona said that she didn't plant it, and that it was coming from last year's garden. Well look at this plant...

     That is the absolute biggest squash I've ever seen in my life! My hand fits just around the neck of it, that's how big it is. But the funniest thing is that it is a hybrid between a squash and zucchini! Somehow this plant has been cross-pollinated and has been producing these monstrosities!

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     Yesterday, Tim and I went to Montgomery. He said that the night before last he really had the urge to see his mom. Turns out his mom was having health difficulties that very night. So, we headed off to Montgomery.

       Before we visited his mom, who had told him that she was fine (unconvincingly, apparently), we went to the mall! That was the first time I'd ever been to the Montgomery mall, and I have to say that it was pretty nice. It was no Galleria, but it was still a nice place.

     Of course, inside the mall goofing off ensued. Tim and I wrought havoc upon all of his favorite stores, and we didn't even buy a single thing.

(And yes, this is me attempting to model for the SWANKY SEXY SUMMER Dress Sale. Sexy right?)

 


  After the Mall, we went straight to Tim's Mom's office. She seemed happy to see us, and reassured Tim that she was feeling fine.

     We sat in her office for a while. I was being quiet and observant, as usual, and I really hope that it didn't come across in a bad way. Anyways, I could tell that I really liked her. She seemed wise and caring, and sounded like she could see what a person was really worth.

    

     When we left Miss Sondra's (Tim's Mom) office, Tim decided to take me to the Shakespeare Festival, seeing as how I'd only been once, and that time really didn't count since all I got to see was the Theater.

     Anyways, the first thing we went to go see was the Museum of Fine Arts.  It was too bad that we got there at the time we did, because it was going to close in about ten minutes.

     So, Tim took me by the hand and gave me a condensed tour of the bottom floor. I must say, for a ten minute tour, it was pretty amazing. I very much look forward  to going back so that I can get some real time to examine some of the work.

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     Today, I mostly studied my new Tarot Cards that I got from the Books A Million in Montgomery yesterday. It's amazing to see how all of the cards have such separate stories, but each of them cover a specific aspect of life.

     I'm also getting into palm reading, which I've found out was once considered a scientific study. I guess you do learn new things every day!

     Oh, and Tim and I cooked his belated birthday cake today. It's a German chocolate, coconut, and pecan cake a la Paula Dean... and that means a ton of butter went into it ;).

(the finished product)

Uh Oh

     So today, Tim and I went over to my Mom's house to go swimming. It was all fine for a while. Then I wanted to play with him. Now I admit, I was a little aggravating, but still. Long story short, he didn't want to play anymore. But I didn't know he was being serious, after all, he's always acting like he doesn't want to play. So I made him mad.

     The worst part was, there was no argument or anything. We just spent the drive back in silence. Well, by that point it had made me mad, because I didn't intend for him to be upset. When we got home, he tried to make casual conversation like nothing ever happened, but I wasn't buying into it. So, he went and fell asleep on the bed, alone. And that's where he is right now.

     I know I shouldn't let this upset me. He even told me that he was in a bad mood. But I just can't help but to feel a mixture of guilt, disappointment, and aggravation. Perhaps I'll be over this by the time that he wakes up.

ugh...

not feeling like blogging today. It's Tim's Birthday and we both have to work. I'm already missing him. I'll talk about the day later, maybe.

Slow and Steady

     So today, I woke up. Stretched a bit. Looked up at the clock, and noticed it said 9:45. It took a moment to register, but eventually I jumped out of bed. I was supposed to pick Tim up from work at 7:00 this morning! Quickly, I called his house. They said that they hadn't seen or heard from him there. So I called his workplace. Sure enough he was in the lobby, just chilling.

     When they put him on, I immediately apologized. I felt so bad, but he assured me that it was okay. He had gotten the chance to catch up on his reading. (I'm forcing him to read the twilight saga before he goes to see any more of the movies.)

     So I rushed down there and brought him back to my place.

     The rest of the day was fairly uneventful, though. Tim tried to get some sleep and I played Oblivion. After a while we had a bit of cuddling time. He ceases to amaze me.

In other news, I really miss my friends. It's not that I'm lonely or anything, it's just that I miss them. I wish we could all get together and do something.

I SWEAR I'm not slacking up!

     So for the past few days my computer has been acting up... and I'm talking "the Blue Screen of Death" type of   acting up. It's been awful. For three days, I've had practically no access to anything. So, I went out and bought a brand new one! Sure it cost me, but I think it was worth it. I forgot what it was like to have a fully-functional computer!

     Despite my technological difficulties, I did still manage to piece together a compilation of photos to show how those past few days have gone...

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Friday
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      Was fairly uneventful. We stayed at my place and just kind of hung around all day. Here you can see our Kitty, Poochie, watching Tim play a video game. Why did we name him Poochie, you may ask? Well, he likes to eat dog food, he prefers dog toys, he chews on our shoes, chases his tail, and even scratches on the door when he wants to sit in our laps.

     I swear that cat is a dog.





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Saturday
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     On all of these days, I've been off work and Tim has been close beside me. He's been just as sweet as ever, and continues to surprise me with his talent and charm. In fact, on Friday he decided to cook a cheesecake for us. Now he knows that there are two things I love in the world and cheesecake is one of them. The other would be a good rainstorm, and guess what? That happened too.


 
       I went outside, gathered up a couple of buckets, and did my best to catch the rainwater.  (I grow a full compilation of plants, and rain water is the absolute best water for a plant, so i try to gather it whenever it is humanly possible.) Tim and I spent time listening to the thunderstorm, since both of us think that it is absolutely romantic.




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Sunday
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      Saturday, we went out to town. I did a little shopping around (mostly for games) but we ended up eating at the Blue Moon Bar-B-Que joint. I'd never been and neither had Tim, so we decided to take a peek inside. When we saw the size of those onion rings, though, our paths were set. We were going to eat there!

     The workers there had on t-shirts that read on the back, "The Best Butts in Town: Blue Moon Bar-B-Que". Tim and I both saw it at the same time, and before I knew it he was cracking jokes. Anyways, we had a lot of fun there, but we decided to move on through our day.

     There is this little place up in Alabaster that a lot of people don't know about. To get there, you have to drive up a tall mountainous hill and find where the road forks off. Right at the fork, one of the roads end, making it more like a small parking area. Behind that area is the "Secret Place". That is what Tim and I have decided to call it.

     It is right on the highest part of the Hill and is filled with beautiful boulders and greenery. I had been there once with one of my friends, Steve. I was doing a "photo-shoot" for him and decided to do some nature shots, when I found this place by accident. Needless to say, I hit the jackpot.

    Anyways, while Tim and I where at the Secret Place, a thunderstorm brewed, leading to heavy rain. The sound of the water hitting the leaves was beautiful, and the hill was so far up that we were actually in a cloud. I jokingly told Tim that when his friends at work asked him what he did today, to reply, "Oh I just took a stroll through the clouds with my boyfriend."

When we eventually got home, we were drenched.