I don't really feel like posting much since I'm feeling a little sad today. Yesterday, my boss confronted me about wearing make-up and told me it was company policy that women ONLY should wear make-up. So no more concealer to cover my bad case of acne :(
Then, not even ten hours later, I saw Tim at work and he was mad. When I asked him why, he said he just got done chewing out some redneck guys about calling him a queer. All I could do is hold him and tel him everything is going to be alright. You see, Tim reacts in anger when his feelings get hurt....
Then I had this dream about a mass genocide of the gay community... well it was more of a nightmare, really.
But all of this has revealed somthing to me. I'm going to have to live with this my whole life.
The fear of being attacked for walking too close to my boyfriend.
The verbal abuse that these homophobes make us endure.
The social unacceptability of my UNCHANGEABLE sexual orientation.
I'm afraid that all of this will follow me to my grave. And I'm tired of fighting it. I'm tired of wearing a smile when it's killing me inside. I'm tired of having to replace my tears with anger in order to protect myself. But really, what does it matter? Nobody cares.
I CARE! I'm so sorry that there are cruel stupid ignorant people in the world that are treating you this way. I dont understand why you cannot wear make up, there must be a way you can challenge that.
ReplyDeleteI know I cannot fully understand what you are going through but I am here for you and you should not have to fight all the assholes (excuse my language...) alone. There are many people who support you and hopefully soon our country will grow up and accept everyone for who they are. *BIG HUG*
There is no excuse for treating people unkindly, no matter who you are, and I'm sorry you've had to be on the receiving end of hurtful comments and discrimination.
ReplyDeleteI'm glad you found my blog so that I could find yours. Keep writing because your words are reaching people who care. :)
thank you both for the encouraging words! I feel so much better now. :)
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry Lloyd :( I think guys should be able to wear concealer. Guys do it a lot of the time to cover up bags under their eyes.
ReplyDeleteLloydkins Im so sorry. Things like this shouldnt happen. I love you no matter what, and the rest of those people can just get over themselves!
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